I'm a huge believer in you make your day and your happiness.
So I'm gonna run down the last few days for you.
Friday - I was let go. . . I had a lock-in to contend with at LBBT which I was in charge of, and I was quite sure that a sleepover of a bunch of kids were not what I was in the mood for. Well thanks to a Landlord and some screaming kids, it didn't go off as planned anyhow.
Saturday - What a boring day. Gary tried hard to "fix" things, by taking me to Cheese Cake Factory and I had tyler with me until afternoon, but it was a hard day. David did text me and in one of them he said he loved me without knowing about my Friday at all. Zach was a big cuddle bug which was nice, but I felt like something HUGE was missing.
Sunday - Went to my brother's house, and while I tried hard to enjoy myself and Lucy, I still felt like I was off. I found my mind wandering to the "what now's" a lot, but Gary made sure to let me know that evening that no matter what, we're good.
Monday - Well yesterday was a little better, besides figuring out that my replacement had already been hired and knew someone I thought I was close with. I felt betrayed a lot, but as I stated last night when mom stopped by to try to make it "better"..None of that matters now anyway. Everything is. . .It just IS..so I have to decide what I want now.
Tuesday - I woke up refreshed and laid in bed until nearly 10am. I wrote a list of things to do, and have been knocking them out. My bathroom is clean like it hasn't been in years, and now I'm gonna start on the kitchen. I have homework to do and a job to look for. I'm kinda excited today..I am almost feeling relieved and am happy that Gary gets that I need alone time sometimes. I still am going to really miss miss miss some wonderful people, but I'm good. I'm really good. And I'm wonderful, let's not forget that.
I decided today that I don't want to be down or upset or numb or whatever, I want to be Me ... the me that I am really comfy with...the one that is confident and knows that idiots exist and sometimes they're even in charge these days, but all I can do is shrug my shoulders and say.."whatever"...
Love the day!
1 comment:
There is always more than one reality. And most people think their perception of reality is the "True Reality."
You cannot be a truely wise and HAPPY person until it is clear to you, as a person, that your own personal thoughts of reality are not necessarily the true reality.
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