Again on the subject of love...

Been thinking about this a lot lately. The heart is such a funny thing. It's interesting how many people think love is so strange. I have for years now decided that love was the most important thing. Not just because I'm a Christian and I know it's what Jesus did and what I know he'd want from me, but also because it's so much more easy to love than to not. Recently someone did enter my life that I have found loving not so easy. It's hard to feel free and open when someone wants to take something important or someone important from you. I have been pushing and hoping that someday I could convince the person I fear I'll lose to see what is going on, but instead, I'm creating some grief for myself and for this person that is not necessary.  I know that the person this is directed at will know what I'm babbling about. Anyway love is not an emotion that has to be earned when it comes to me. We're interconnected and love is sometimes the only thing you can give, so from this day forward I am gonna try harder.

Sometimes the best way to fix things is to let them be.

Now a little on loss.
Isn't it so funny to sad to think of what the people that have moved on are missing out on. Yesterday while uploading a stupid YouTube video, I thought about my grandpa would be cursing that, since he loved the whole "spacebook" thing so much. I miss his comments about technology so much. I just miss him. Life is so short, I hope all of you are making choices that embrace that.

I know... I know.. Haven't blogged in months and then this one is all weird.. I'll try to do better.

Xoxo.. Millions.. To infinity and beyond

Change in a year

It's amazing how fast days and months and years go by the older you get, but something I thought of the other day was "It's almost Christmas again, but Wow..it was this time last year, when I lost the job I thought I'd be a retiree at."  I know...Who would have thought that such an irritating turn of events would put me where I am today?  I have to say, there is NO other company I would want to work for.  I just found out today that if we actually use our 6 volunteer days, we get 1000 dollars to put towards our charity of choice.  There is not really another company I can think of that does all this wonderful things for it's employees and the community, and how do they find the perfect people to be around?  I dunno, but it's totally fantastic.

A year ago, when I was planning zach's birthday bash, we were in Lebanon and I was broke because of the business and no job, yet we made a great day for the boy.  This year, it's such a strange place to be.  We're in Greenwood, which is feeling like home more and more.

Life is just one weird change after another, and I remember feeling like my life was falling all apart.  Actually I've had that feeling twice in one year.  (almost a desperation)  I'm glad I gave up my control of the situation and let God lead me. I am in love with my life and with my man and with my kids and well just about everything.  I wish you all a happy light at the end of the tunnel.

To all my Wabasheans - I still miss you all.  I will probably always miss you, but na na a boo boo I have it way better than you. ;)

Warning!! If you want negative, do NOT read. . .

Yeah I know, I know.  It's been a long time since the last one.  Quite frankly, I don't have enough to complain about anymore to keep up a daily blog, and honestly I know that hearing happiness rolling off of me is not that exciting for everyone.  It's kinda like the news, if it isn't like a train wreck, it's too easy to look away.  What do I mean by that?  Well if you aren't hearing bitching and complaining and someone is just well seeing rainbows and butterflies, no one wants to hear it all the time.  It's hard to complain when I am almost giddy happy in my career, and my personal life, and my church family and my friends and well when I am filled with a pure joy so often.  I'll try to come up with some quirky complaints at times.

So I'm going to just try to come up with weird off the wall stuff for a while.

I started playing with a new tool today called jing.  http://www.techsmith.com/jing.html  It is really cool, I think everyone should check it out.  It's a fast easy way to send someone a screencast to show them what you're doing or seeing on your pc...and it's FREE.

I am definitely not an economist.  I struggled through my homework last night which I got a B on somehow.  Somehow...seriously I didn't realize how much math went with the economy.  Dumb, but true.  I have to calculate 20% for a tip on my fingers, so this is going to be challenging.

So watched the last ever Dexter earlier, and meh...not impressed.  Didn't really care for that ending.  I am getting excited about the new show that I have recording right now Marvel's agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. that Zach talked me into earlier.  Oh my goodness I love superheros.

I am still looking for a vampire, so....if you know anyone that can help me with the immortal thing, please let me know.

Oh and I won a giftcard at work today for posting twitter and instagram ET posts.  How CRAZY is that?  I do this stuff cuz I love it and I get rewarded.  Now if only I can get the +ExactTarget to follow me it might make my life. I am seriously in love with being Orange.  Thinking about dying one strand of hair orange.  *smile*

Have I told you that I love you lately, probably not if you don't talk to me on a reg basis.  I do though.  I love you all.

Have a GREAT week or so until I blog again.

xoxo..millions and infinity.

My flying experience. . . Superwoman

Okay - so. . .Who knew..
Jumping out of a plane does not make your tummy do flip flops (other than nerves).  You do not get the feeling of a drop like riding a roller coaster, although, if you are too afraid to do a roller coaster, there is no way you will jump out of a plane at 12000 feet.  Let me just say, we were about half way up (about 5000 feet) when I asked if we were almost there, and I was almost laughed at.  Well that is when I started thinking, I do not really remember anything this handsome guy has tried to teach me.  Then when Jenn decided she wanted to go before me, I was fine, until I saw her leave the plane. . . Probably that's when I felt most nervous, for a second or two until I followed her.  And then it was like, crazy not scary..more like "I am flying" and "oh my gosh, the ground doesn't even look or feel like it's getting closer" Until the moment when the parachute went open and then everything was super super calm.  Honestly the calmest most serene feeling EVER.  Like it would be good for a person who meditates to feel that.

Anyway - after the super soft landing, Jenn and I hugged and decided we wanted to go again.  I have already purchased our second jump that I think we'll schedule for April or May.  This is an amazing experience that I think everyone should try.  I know everyone won't, but it was fantastically cool.


Okay - and so. . . I love my job btw...LOVE it.  My heart is filled with joy when I even think of it.  Next week is Connections in Indy which is a week of Marketers coming together from tons of companies all under the ExactTarget umbrella.  Pretty neat.  Imagine Dragons next Wednesday.

Now I am going to determine my next wild and crazy thing...Any suggestions?

You'll want to read the whole thing. . .

There are some things about living in an apartment on the third floor that SUCK.  Like yesterday I left my keys in my car (yeah, I have a push button starter key that was in my pocket, but when I left to go meet my beautiful new niece, I locked up and took my keys to the car).  This meant that this morning, I was the last one out and I decided not to even lock the door cuz I was too lazy to walk down to my car and then back up.  Another thing that has happened to me a few times is that I forget the key fab in the apartment and get to my car and realize and then have to come all the way back up.  Not to mention that shopping and carrying stuff up the stairs really is so much FUN..I know this is all small really, but they're just things I decided to complain about.  I do have things in my life that aren't all peachy all the time, just not that much.

So. . . I also had a moment of intense sadness today.  It didn't last a really long time, and the reason is quite personal, but I did actually feel the feeling and let tears flow for a few minutes and then, I got better.  I decided that I couldn't keep feeling that way.  It was a new thing for me.  I am really working on feeling bad emotions and letting them go.  I don't mean forgetting or not recognizing them, it's just that so many things can't be changed by you feeling bad about it, so I don't want to dwell anymore on the bad or the sad.  I challenge you to do the same, it is sure liberating to know that you don't have to carry that load.

Now on to a happy thought..
Transport - yes, they can transport atoms across the room now, how long do you think it will take to transport a person around the world?  Do you realize that less than 100 years ago was when we first went into space..?  Can you even fathom how far in technology we've come in the past 50 years, heck how about the last 10?  I'm so excited to see what happens in the next 10.

Did you know that Cottonelle has a wet wipe for adults that is flush-able?  I didn't either until I did some research on a common household item for my Marketing class.  Yeah seriously, they need to be more out there with that one.  I think I might try it.  This is gonna sound ridiculous, but it was only a few weeks ago that I was thinking about how really gross it is that we wipe our butts with dry paper.  How clean can that really make you?  :)
https://www.cottonelle.com/products/cottonelle-fresh-care-flushable-moist-wipes

We're having a baby. . .

No - DUH...not me...that would so not be cool. . .
So tomorrow is a very exciting day.  My new baby niece will be here in the morning, and I will go meet her for the first time in the evening.  Pretty happy about all that.

So. . . Have you ever seen someone or known someone that has a mean resting face?  My bro mentioned that to me the other day when we saw a poster of a couple of mean looking but beautiful women.  He said, "Those are some mean resting faces."  I have been noticing mean faces ever since.  There was this man walking down the road downtown yesterday that had a frown face so big, I don't think that if he did smile the cracks of his mouth would even break an even plain.  I wish people as a whole seemed happier.

It is way cool to work at ET.  I seriously think there are so many people that think their jobs are good, but they have NO idea how good it could be.  Like I know that I liked working at Wabash, but  . . . Wabash National has NOTHING on ExactTarget.  This is the most fantastic place ever.  I've been there almost a month and I can't believe it's been that long.  I'm not saying the job is easy, because it's definitely a lot to learn fast, but it is so nice to work at a place that knows that they're force feeding you information and that you are not going to fly on day one.  Although, I have taken a few cases this week and closed them...yay...
Got a new pair of Orange Converse and wore them today.  Orange - what a great color.

Last nights -- Newsroom  - - - Whoa right...I'm glad we finally found out what the lawyers were actually doing, and that it ended the way it did.  LOVE that show.

So I started using Spotify this week.  It's interesting that I've had an account for a long time, but just realized how cool it really is.  Awesome how it learns what I want to listen to on my radio channels.  Music is GREAT.  Hey, did you know that at Ryobi, I was told that  we were not ALLOWED to listen to music.  How crazy is that...?  Anyway, I think music is a staple that I will never live without at work again.

Fabutastic...

It's kinda hard to blog often when all you can do is talk about how great things are going. I don't want anything to jinx things, and that sounds superstitious.  I could talk about how things seem overwhelming sometimes. Learning lots and started school back up and Black Box fall sessions starting.. Lots of stuff.. BUT.....
ExactTarget is a fabutastic place to work. It's nice to know all these people I'm meeting. They are likeable and soft, but not soft like you're thinking. I worked at a foundry last and the people were hard there. The kinds that hold grudges and are just tough.. That's not bad either, but not laid back and comfortable. This is a new kind of love... It's great. 
New John Mayer cd out tomorrow.. Not a Huge fan anymore, but i got it anyway.  Maybe I'll review later.

We'll anyway
Love you
Xoxo.. Millions and infinity